I'm not doing what I'm supposed to be doing.
Take that as you will. Any of your guesses are probably right.

I will.
I tell myself
I will do well.
I will finish this.
I will be something.
I will help out.
I will be with you.
I will love you.
I will always be here.
I will be patient.
I will hold my own.
I will accomplish.
I will become.
I tell myself
I won't rip my hair out when you speak.
I won't hold a grudge.
I won't cry when people tell me about you.
I won't be hurt by your indifference.
I won't be discouraged by your rejection.
I won't settle for less than I deserve.
I won't be so irritable.
I won't cling.
I won't fuck this up.
I won't be intimidated by you.

I will not lose faith in you, or us, or myself, or what I am doing and where I want to go.

A fresh blog to hold what I can't.

What to blog on the first post...Let's be general for now.
New semester, a fairly new year, a new workshop, new directing scene, a new love, new friendships, renewed friendships *fingers crossed*....new blog, clearly.

love.